flightless bird

I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your straight blind eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
And when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Cursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide/white fence cracks
Kissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, brown hair bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill, stuck going down

I wonder.. without twilight... will this song being so famous like now?
it's a nice and relaxing song...

有感而发

看到某些人做某些事情
莫名其妙的
心里只觉得很恶心， 很想吐。。。

最近，每天都在忙功课
想找些时间读读书，
看看戏，逛逛街，
很像逃离고대，
谁来帮帮我。。。。

我很怕。。真的很怕。。

my current feelings..

i know i'm not smart.. n tat's why i work harder compare to ppl..
i know i'm slow.. tat's why i did my best to copy down everything n figure it out by myself.. or by asking the others
i know i'm not interested in it.. but still i'm trying my very best to work things out..

but sometimes..
i questioned myself.. is my hard work really worthwhile?
i feel bad becoz of troubling ppl to teach me..
(bcoz i'm slow.. ppl takes time to explain to me)
n now ..

i'm facing another failure...
i know.. u might tell me it's just a start... work harder for the next time..
i know ... yes...
but i'm stress...
ppl all can do.. but not me..
i'm always the 1 standing behind while watching the others running infront..
why ..
why am i always the 1 to be standing from behind..
am i standing at the wrong place..? is this the real path tat i'm looking for?

now addicted wif..

什么都不想做，
什么都不想要,
什么都不想理，
此似此刻，
我只想要看戏！

everything's new to me..

shifted to new hse.. new room.. new roomies..new environment..
entered new uni.. gonna starts my new life.. n meet wif new group of frens..
sigh..
am i ready for all this changes?
i was super bz for the past few days.. over the courses registration..
i've a pack schedule for this sem.. eventhough i oni registered for 17 credits @@
n now i'm bz over wif the transfer credits list..
started to feel scare.. n to be honest..due to my poor sense of directions..
i still dont really recognise all the directions here.. the uni is too big... to be recognise anyway..
luckily.. i still know the direction to walk to the 공학관.. phew.. hope everything's gonna b fine to me..

feeling confuse n blur over my career.. did i pick the wrong path for myself?
there's no turning b.. all i can tell myself is to be brave enough and finish the road ...