The only thing that i can say..
I wish to be disappear from here...
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Getting older ...
I'm getting older... day by day...
lots of stuffs starts to pop up when we grow old..
sigh... which i hate the most...
I just want to be a simple and normal girl...
But seems like it's hard to be happy go lucky all the time...
When time comes...
We need to think... need to find... need to settle our own path... own future as well...
I'm still not getting used to it...
forgive me for being so immature...
I just need more time...
lots of stuffs starts to pop up when we grow old..
sigh... which i hate the most...
I just want to be a simple and normal girl...
But seems like it's hard to be happy go lucky all the time...
When time comes...
We need to think... need to find... need to settle our own path... own future as well...
I'm still not getting used to it...
forgive me for being so immature...
I just need more time...
Monday, August 23, 2010
Help.. i need advice...
i'm having flat warts on my face.. it spread to my neck.. and my chest...
for your information, flat warts are caused by Human HPV virus.. which has ntg to do with the cosmetics i use.. nor the food tat i've taken...
i've consulted 2 doctors
the 1st one said that it could be removed by some kind of laser treatment.. burning off the skin.. leaving behind with holes... n wait for months for it to recover... however.. there's a possibility it might leave scars behind... which... scares me the most currently... what if it leads to numerous holds leaving behind after the treatment??
the 2nd doc told me to try with applying acid.. but it might be ineffective and it might leads side effects to my skin... he told me tat if i'm choosing this method.. he will oni pick 3 to 4 spots .. apply acid on it weekly by going to the hospital.. n wait 3 - 4 months to c the effectiveness... however.. if this method is successful.. it might help to build antibiotics in my body...
but IT'S really too long... n i'm scare to try...
i google... google n keep googling...
it seems like the warts might go away after my body itself has built up with antibiotic to fight with the virus.. but it might take years .. but it leaves no scars...
it's actually not tat obvious until u really stand closer n look at my face thoroughly...
what should i do... shall i look for treatment... or shall i just leave it???
i'm really depressed... can anyone give me some advice?? @_______@
for your information, flat warts are caused by Human HPV virus.. which has ntg to do with the cosmetics i use.. nor the food tat i've taken...
i've consulted 2 doctors
the 1st one said that it could be removed by some kind of laser treatment.. burning off the skin.. leaving behind with holes... n wait for months for it to recover... however.. there's a possibility it might leave scars behind... which... scares me the most currently... what if it leads to numerous holds leaving behind after the treatment??
the 2nd doc told me to try with applying acid.. but it might be ineffective and it might leads side effects to my skin... he told me tat if i'm choosing this method.. he will oni pick 3 to 4 spots .. apply acid on it weekly by going to the hospital.. n wait 3 - 4 months to c the effectiveness... however.. if this method is successful.. it might help to build antibiotics in my body...
but IT'S really too long... n i'm scare to try...
i google... google n keep googling...
it seems like the warts might go away after my body itself has built up with antibiotic to fight with the virus.. but it might take years .. but it leaves no scars...
it's actually not tat obvious until u really stand closer n look at my face thoroughly...
what should i do... shall i look for treatment... or shall i just leave it???
i'm really depressed... can anyone give me some advice?? @_______@
Monday, August 2, 2010
越长大越孤单
哥哥今天找了这段片子，post了在 facebook, 只说了“ for her " 简单的两个字。。。
看了这段片子， 奇怪的感觉好像是要给我看的。。。
好奇心之下， 我问了他。。。 给谁看的。。。
他只说了。。。
“我看到这段片子。。。 心里只想起了你“
想起了好朋友们的劝告， 妈妈的苦心，
我的矜持。。。错了吗？
我真的身在福中不知福吗？
难道我真的应该重新再来吗？
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
realistic...
a short conversation yesterday.. makes me wondering whole day... till today...
am i really that realistic? is it good or is it bad to behave like that??
i'm always regret over the things that i've said ...
i've always wanted to learn how to become quiet...
but i always failed over the mission that i wanted to accomplish @_@~~
that's the reason why sometimes i used to keep myself away over the others....
sigh....
a simple conversation... makes me wondering lots n lots of stuffs...
guess i really need some changes in me...
anyway~
have a good day everyone~
am i really that realistic? is it good or is it bad to behave like that??
i'm always regret over the things that i've said ...
i've always wanted to learn how to become quiet...
but i always failed over the mission that i wanted to accomplish @_@~~
that's the reason why sometimes i used to keep myself away over the others....
sigh....
a simple conversation... makes me wondering lots n lots of stuffs...
guess i really need some changes in me...
anyway~
have a good day everyone~
Saturday, May 8, 2010
it's MAY ㅠ.ㅠ
i feel like.. i just came b not long ago from Malaysia...
a blink of an eye.. it's may now.....
i dont even realise time passes so fast........my birthday is overed..
and i'm 23 now!!! awww.. in korea 24 ㅜ.ㅜ
how i wish.. time could just stop.... as i enjoy my life a lot here.. in korea ㅜ.ㅜ
a blink of an eye.. it's may now.....
i dont even realise time passes so fast........my birthday is overed..
and i'm 23 now!!! awww.. in korea 24 ㅜ.ㅜ
how i wish.. time could just stop.... as i enjoy my life a lot here.. in korea ㅜ.ㅜ
Friday, April 9, 2010
something's bothering me...
2 weeks ago... on the 26th of march.. Friday morning physics class(the 3rd class of this semester)...
my partner was absent again to the class... he's been missing after the 1st class of this semester.. which i dunno what's the reason behind..
Because of this.. i had done exp 2 on my own... without any help from the others
however, the 3rd experiment is different... this experiment i couldn't do it alone as i need someone to control the com so that i can control the cart...
Therefore... i went to ask the TA... i said can i join another group? or can u gimme a partner? (they're some groups who have 3 ppl)
TA said.. sure.... he asked a group (group2) which has 3 ppl.. 2 guys and a girl...
he asked a guy ask him to shift to my group and do together with me...
n guess wat...
that STUPID guy... stared at the TA ... with a terrible look.... showing how bu shuang he was.....
The TA was much younger than him.. therefore... he dare not to cause trouble with him..... n he said out inside the class.. any1 willing to come to my group and help me? for those who have 3 ppl in their group....
n guess what...
NO ONE!!! NO ONE!! i stood there.... speechless....
n then.. fy who sat next to my group... raised her hand up... n she volunteer to come n help me...
Thank god...
But I'm really sad... Common! the class has less than 5 girls.. n mostly r guys... what are those guys doing??? letting a girl do exp alone n not helping out????
HUH????
n today... 9th of April ... after resting for 1 week.. today i have my physics exp class again...
i hesitated quite long this morning.. shall i tell the TA to assign a new partner for me? or should i just keep quiet and do it on my own....
(today's TA is another TA... he's the eldest in the department)
after a deep consideration... i decided to try my luck for once more.. n i went up n told him... my partner has been missing after the 1st class...
then he said really?? he walked to the same group (group 2) n he said the same thing like what the previous TA has mentioned. He told them 1 guy from this group pls shift ur position.. i would like to rearrange the team member of this class...
n guess wat...
the same guy who used a terrible look to stare at my previous TA he said this to the TA
싫어요..... (i don't want)
i was like...
HUH????? i really wanna walk infront n scold him "WTF" ... my tears was going to drop when i heard that words from his mouth...
what's wrong with partnering with me??? did i do anything wrong???? am i that scary??
then the TA asked why to him..
n he said
"우리 3명이 친구예요" <-- "3 of us r frens"
n once again... i'm lost for words again,... what the heck is that lame excuse....
frens that's why u need to stick n don't bother about the others??? let a girl do the tough experiment all alone ???? common... is that how a guy should behave??
i felt so sad... i felt like I'm being rejected by the Koreans.. n i felt... really really bad....
luckily another guy from fy's group saw this n he volunteer to shift to my group...
when he came...
i straight away said "고마워요" thanks to him.. which i really meant that....
i was really scared that i'll cried at that moment... n luckily... thanks to him....
what's wrong??? is it becoz i'm a foreigner?? is it becoz u're scared to communicate wif me in korean?? dont u think i should be the 1 who's more scare than u???
the 1st time... i realised... how bad the koreans can be..
my partner was absent again to the class... he's been missing after the 1st class of this semester.. which i dunno what's the reason behind..
Because of this.. i had done exp 2 on my own... without any help from the others
however, the 3rd experiment is different... this experiment i couldn't do it alone as i need someone to control the com so that i can control the cart...
Therefore... i went to ask the TA... i said can i join another group? or can u gimme a partner? (they're some groups who have 3 ppl)
TA said.. sure.... he asked a group (group2) which has 3 ppl.. 2 guys and a girl...
he asked a guy ask him to shift to my group and do together with me...
n guess wat...
that STUPID guy... stared at the TA ... with a terrible look.... showing how bu shuang he was.....
The TA was much younger than him.. therefore... he dare not to cause trouble with him..... n he said out inside the class.. any1 willing to come to my group and help me? for those who have 3 ppl in their group....
n guess what...
NO ONE!!! NO ONE!! i stood there.... speechless....
n then.. fy who sat next to my group... raised her hand up... n she volunteer to come n help me...
Thank god...
But I'm really sad... Common! the class has less than 5 girls.. n mostly r guys... what are those guys doing??? letting a girl do exp alone n not helping out????
HUH????
n today... 9th of April ... after resting for 1 week.. today i have my physics exp class again...
i hesitated quite long this morning.. shall i tell the TA to assign a new partner for me? or should i just keep quiet and do it on my own....
(today's TA is another TA... he's the eldest in the department)
after a deep consideration... i decided to try my luck for once more.. n i went up n told him... my partner has been missing after the 1st class...
then he said really?? he walked to the same group (group 2) n he said the same thing like what the previous TA has mentioned. He told them 1 guy from this group pls shift ur position.. i would like to rearrange the team member of this class...
n guess wat...
the same guy who used a terrible look to stare at my previous TA he said this to the TA
싫어요..... (i don't want)
i was like...
HUH????? i really wanna walk infront n scold him "WTF" ... my tears was going to drop when i heard that words from his mouth...
what's wrong with partnering with me??? did i do anything wrong???? am i that scary??
then the TA asked why to him..
n he said
"우리 3명이 친구예요" <-- "3 of us r frens"
n once again... i'm lost for words again,... what the heck is that lame excuse....
frens that's why u need to stick n don't bother about the others??? let a girl do the tough experiment all alone ???? common... is that how a guy should behave??
i felt so sad... i felt like I'm being rejected by the Koreans.. n i felt... really really bad....
luckily another guy from fy's group saw this n he volunteer to shift to my group...
when he came...
i straight away said "고마워요" thanks to him.. which i really meant that....
i was really scared that i'll cried at that moment... n luckily... thanks to him....
what's wrong??? is it becoz i'm a foreigner?? is it becoz u're scared to communicate wif me in korean?? dont u think i should be the 1 who's more scare than u???
the 1st time... i realised... how bad the koreans can be..
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
untitled
it's so hard to look for someone who truly understands u...
never question why and always have faith in u...
someone who can makes u happy..
someone who'll always be there by ur side whenever u need them...
someone who can be a good listener to u...
i'm always grateful and satisfy to what i'm having...
but...
again n again....
the ppl whom i thought will truly understands me....
who always be there for me...
hurts me deeply again and again...
Guess... i'm always alone... in my own world...
never question why and always have faith in u...
someone who can makes u happy..
someone who'll always be there by ur side whenever u need them...
someone who can be a good listener to u...
i'm always grateful and satisfy to what i'm having...
but...
again n again....
the ppl whom i thought will truly understands me....
who always be there for me...
hurts me deeply again and again...
Guess... i'm always alone... in my own world...
Sunday, March 7, 2010
나도 모르겠어.. ㅠ.ㅠ
내 마음...
내 생각...
내가 지금 원하는 것...
내가 지금 하는 것...
............................. 모르겠어.. 모르겠어.......
다 몰라 ㅠ.ㅠ
당신은 날 좀 도와줄래?
내 생각...
내가 지금 원하는 것...
내가 지금 하는 것...
............................. 모르겠어.. 모르겠어.......
다 몰라 ㅠ.ㅠ
당신은 날 좀 도와줄래?
Saturday, February 13, 2010
What a man wants
A man wants a woman
who understands him even though when the others do not understand him
who concern of him much much more compare to the other men
who has faith in him and trust him no matter what happens
yea... is that really simple for a woman to do so?
can a guy say that she's not the woman that he wanst when the woman fails do so?
just my thoughts here...
heard this from coffee prince and that reminds me of something...
i heard this from somewhere else before too~
who understands him even though when the others do not understand him
who concern of him much much more compare to the other men
who has faith in him and trust him no matter what happens
yea... is that really simple for a woman to do so?
can a guy say that she's not the woman that he wanst when the woman fails do so?
just my thoughts here...
heard this from coffee prince and that reminds me of something...
i heard this from somewhere else before too~
Saturday, August 29, 2009
my family
hmmm tot of this paragraph few days ago.. but i didnt write it down..
well since today it's my last nite in gor gor's house before i flying b to korea..
i'm going to write it down .. hehe abt my family
i got a very cute baba.. well.. really cute.. not lying.. how to describe abt him?.. hmm.. well sometimes he will say something out of the blue.. without knowing the reasons why.. something that make u think tat.. awww.. he's really cute.. feel like kissing him.. haha.. then.. i got a super duper lau gai mama.. hmm just imagine she will fat pei hei if baba dont hold his hands.. if baba treat me more good compare to her.. OMG @@ kesian my baba.. i dont think i need to describe how lau gai she is towards me.. @@..
Next, i also have a super duper triple lau hei dai gor gor.. @@ imagine we always have to wait for him to finish his work for dinner.. his 5 mins will always be more than 30 mins.. ~ ask him to go out... to leave the hse.. will take more than 45 mins eventhough it can be done within 5 mins.. ai... then 2nd gor gor.. wat to say.. super talkative.. no wonder he's so good in social.. imagine.. how he bargain for me my laptop price.. from 2500 - 2k.. caught a super big fish hehe.. abt my 3 gor gor? hmm.. dunno to me.. he's too hardworking.. he sure will finish his work on time.. n he will do more than wat u ask.. he always like to rush rush n rush... make sure u dont be lau hei if he ask u to do something.. n his temper is very bad oso.. so typically like a cow lo..!!! since his horoscope is a cow oso :p
so?? wat am i???????
sigh......................................................
i think .. i have the combinations of all of them~~~
funny?????haha.. I DONT THINK SO~ ><
well since today it's my last nite in gor gor's house before i flying b to korea..
i'm going to write it down .. hehe abt my family
i got a very cute baba.. well.. really cute.. not lying.. how to describe abt him?.. hmm.. well sometimes he will say something out of the blue.. without knowing the reasons why.. something that make u think tat.. awww.. he's really cute.. feel like kissing him.. haha.. then.. i got a super duper lau gai mama.. hmm just imagine she will fat pei hei if baba dont hold his hands.. if baba treat me more good compare to her.. OMG @@ kesian my baba.. i dont think i need to describe how lau gai she is towards me.. @@..
Next, i also have a super duper triple lau hei dai gor gor.. @@ imagine we always have to wait for him to finish his work for dinner.. his 5 mins will always be more than 30 mins.. ~ ask him to go out... to leave the hse.. will take more than 45 mins eventhough it can be done within 5 mins.. ai... then 2nd gor gor.. wat to say.. super talkative.. no wonder he's so good in social.. imagine.. how he bargain for me my laptop price.. from 2500 - 2k.. caught a super big fish hehe.. abt my 3 gor gor? hmm.. dunno to me.. he's too hardworking.. he sure will finish his work on time.. n he will do more than wat u ask.. he always like to rush rush n rush... make sure u dont be lau hei if he ask u to do something.. n his temper is very bad oso.. so typically like a cow lo..!!! since his horoscope is a cow oso :p
so?? wat am i???????
sigh......................................................
i think .. i have the combinations of all of them~~~
funny?????haha.. I DONT THINK SO~ ><
Friday, May 22, 2009
sigh...
results suck like hell..
another sub below average...
wondering how many subjects am i going to fail for this sem? @@...
boh mood to do my hw anymore.. sigh....................
PHOBIA wif exams and the results..! @_@
another sub below average...
wondering how many subjects am i going to fail for this sem? @@...
boh mood to do my hw anymore.. sigh....................
PHOBIA wif exams and the results..! @_@
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
sweetness in the air~~
i think i'm dead @_@
i've just finished "breaking dawn"...
the ending was... AMAZING ....
it's something tat i'm out of expectation.........
n i can feel sweetness is in the air~~~
seriously i think i'm already dead
eventhough i'm still sitting here.. breathing @_@
i've just finished "breaking dawn"...
the ending was... AMAZING ....
it's something tat i'm out of expectation.........
n i can feel sweetness is in the air~~~
seriously i think i'm already dead
eventhough i'm still sitting here.. breathing @_@
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Dreams
Are we suppose to dream? or just tat we wanted to dream?
^^ have you ever thought of this question before in your life?
Why? Why do we dream?
i read an article in my english class..
"Dream Bigger Dreams" that's what the article was about..
and i'm impressed by that .. a lot
Why not?? We must dream bigger dreams, or shall i say.. we must dare to dream!!
if u dont dare to dream at all, how are you going to archieve your goals ?
Eventhough u might not be able to archieve what u want.. but at least.. u dream of having it before!
If you can find happiness in your dreams.. then why not???
and that's why.. i'm not looking for a cure .. at least not for this moment ^^
Some of you might think that.. aww.. she's such freak~ watever! i dont give a damn on it anyway ^^
i'm happy with the way i am~
Are you feeling the same as i am? ^^
^^ have you ever thought of this question before in your life?
Why? Why do we dream?
i read an article in my english class..
"Dream Bigger Dreams" that's what the article was about..
and i'm impressed by that .. a lot
Why not?? We must dream bigger dreams, or shall i say.. we must dare to dream!!
if u dont dare to dream at all, how are you going to archieve your goals ?
Eventhough u might not be able to archieve what u want.. but at least.. u dream of having it before!
If you can find happiness in your dreams.. then why not???
and that's why.. i'm not looking for a cure .. at least not for this moment ^^
Some of you might think that.. aww.. she's such freak~ watever! i dont give a damn on it anyway ^^
i'm happy with the way i am~
Are you feeling the same as i am? ^^
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
my current feelings..
i know i'm not smart.. n tat's why i work harder compare to ppl..
i know i'm slow.. tat's why i did my best to copy down everything n figure it out by myself.. or by asking the others
i know i'm not interested in it.. but still i'm trying my very best to work things out..
but sometimes..
i questioned myself.. is my hard work really worthwhile?
i feel bad becoz of troubling ppl to teach me..
(bcoz i'm slow.. ppl takes time to explain to me)
n now ..
i'm facing another failure...
i know.. u might tell me it's just a start... work harder for the next time..
i know ... yes...
but i'm stress...
ppl all can do.. but not me..
i'm always the 1 standing behind while watching the others running infront..
why ..
why am i always the 1 to be standing from behind..
am i standing at the wrong place..? is this the real path tat i'm looking for?
i know i'm slow.. tat's why i did my best to copy down everything n figure it out by myself.. or by asking the others
i know i'm not interested in it.. but still i'm trying my very best to work things out..
but sometimes..
i questioned myself.. is my hard work really worthwhile?
i feel bad becoz of troubling ppl to teach me..
(bcoz i'm slow.. ppl takes time to explain to me)
n now ..
i'm facing another failure...
i know.. u might tell me it's just a start... work harder for the next time..
i know ... yes...
but i'm stress...
ppl all can do.. but not me..
i'm always the 1 standing behind while watching the others running infront..
why ..
why am i always the 1 to be standing from behind..
am i standing at the wrong place..? is this the real path tat i'm looking for?
Saturday, February 14, 2009
valentine's day!
next year!!
next year!!
today better dont go out... sakit mata sakit hati...
MP!! my dear..!
next year!!
today better dont go out... sakit mata sakit hati...
MP!! my dear..!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
grrr books !!
everyone has gone.. frens had gone b to study..
bros gone b to work..
wii game has gone too.. together wif my bro..
astro on demand oso gone...
mummy starts working tmr too..
as for me..
i gonna start touching books! it's so hard.. i'm still in my holiday mood.. but not forgetting.. few weeks later when i got b to korea.. there's an entrance exam waiting for me...
sad sad sad!
can any1 stop the time for me??? pls???
oh god...
i wonder.. how come fairy tales never happen to me...
grrr
bros gone b to work..
wii game has gone too.. together wif my bro..
astro on demand oso gone...
mummy starts working tmr too..
as for me..
i gonna start touching books! it's so hard.. i'm still in my holiday mood.. but not forgetting.. few weeks later when i got b to korea.. there's an entrance exam waiting for me...
sad sad sad!
can any1 stop the time for me??? pls???
oh god...
i wonder.. how come fairy tales never happen to me...
grrr
Sunday, December 7, 2008
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